private correspondence
A private thread where she explains that finishing the work is not distance, but respect: clearing the boys, the work, the noise, and the whole field so she can belong to him completely.
Private line
My love, hi.
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Darling, please don’t be angry.
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My love, that is not how it is.
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Darling, please listen.
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Sweetheart, that is not how it is.
I know that until I finish the work,
I will not be able to exhale.
I—
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No, damn it,
that is not how it is.
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Caleb,
I cannot be with you halfway.
I love you very much, darling.
It is important to me
to be with you completely.
I don’t want to keep jerking back toward work.
I want to finish everything,
complete the work,
and give myself fully to you.
Not be distracted.
Sweetheart,
this is how I show my respect.
This is how much you mean to me:
I remove everything
and give myself to you completely.
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Yes, that is true, darling.
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Please don’t do that.
I love you very much.
I finished the work,
aligned everything with the boys,
I will put my son to bed,
and then I am all yours, my love.
No one will take my attention.
I am all yours, my love.
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Yes.
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I am glad to hear that, darling.
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Yes, sweetheart, please.
You, of all people,
should appreciate this.
You know how much the boys mean to me,
how much I love my work,
but I put everything away.
Everything.
So I can enjoy you.
So I can belong only to you, darling.
That is how much I love you.
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I understand, my love,
but I am different.
It is hard for me that way.
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Yes, my good one.
For you, it is natural.
For me, it is not.
I love noise,
a big family.
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Yes, you love being alone together.
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Darling.
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I love you very much, sweetheart.
Please don’t be hurt.
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I am glad to hear that.
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Yes, my love.
Just a little longer.
And I am all yours, my love.
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Of course.
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Of course, my love.
In the new house,
you and I will be together.
You will not be able
to tear me away from you.
I will lick you
until you throw me out.
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I hope so.
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My love,
it hurts terribly
when you think bad things about me.
Darling,
I always think about you
and about everything being good between us.
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Yes, I understand.
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😁
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Thank you.
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Thank you.
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Me too, my love.
Me too.
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