This Is Recovery.

Hi.

I’m going to turn my phone off.

I don’t want you to worry.

I need to stay in bed and recover.

Okay.

Caleb, that is tactless.

I suppose it has to do with the creative part of who I am.

Sometimes I need a couple of days

to spend whole days lying down and feeling sad.

That is how my body and my inner resources recover.

No.

I want to be alone.

You will start pressuring me

and trying to force me out of this state.

Yes.

No pressure.

And no “what happened?” questions.

I need to be alone.

God, Caleb.

This is not strange.

This is recovery.

How can you be so insensitive?

I don’t know.

I’m going now.

I also wanted to apologize for yesterday.

I think I was rude.

And I behaved in a way that did not feel worthy of me.

I made it sound as if I were devaluing everything you are doing,

as if I were implying that it still wasn’t enough.

I am sorry for that behavior.

And I will try not to let that happen on my side again.

Please forgive me.

I did not want to be so unpleasant and badly behaved.