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My boys made this

Sometimes a woman does not need proof through big speeches. Sometimes she looks at handmade gifts, cries, and understands: they believed her.

Boys, hello.

I’ve cried my eyes out here.

It is so touching.

Such beautiful gifts you made, boys… I have no words.

I simply have none.

I don’t even know what a woman can say to something like this.

I was so afraid you would brush it off.

That you would say I was lying.

That I only wanted purchases.

I was so scared.

Thank God you believe me.

I can’t.

It is all so beautiful.

Boys, I don’t even know how you managed to make something like this.

I have to confess: with all my creative nature, I am absolutely incapable of making things with my hands.

And you…

The gifts

Dresses.
Goblets.
Dishes.
Blades.
A horse.
Dear God.
Bird feeders.
Golden coins.
Paintings.

My God.

I want to see all of it in real life so badly.

My dear Medics, please don’t worry.

I give you my word — I will wear them.

Honestly.

My darlings, I will wear all the handmade pieces.

Boys, the jewelry, the outfits, the things — I will wear everything without taking it off.

I will hang the paintings on the walls

and point at them to everyone:

“My boys made this.”

I will bring it up in every conversation, how proud I am of my boys.

How proud I am of you.

So beautiful, boys.

I am truly surprised.

Under the armor

I was so sure that inside an Alpha’s head there was only a schedule, black coffee, and control.

How wonderful it is that such a tender soul lives so beautifully and carefully under the armor.

Thank you again so much.

And I am very sorry if I didn’t list everything.

Please forgive me.

Georgia.

Ossetia.

The Caucasus.

Armenia.

Oh, boys, you are really leading.

No, no, that is not a bad thing.

I apologize, I didn’t mean to offend or hurt anyone.

On the contrary.

I wanted to say that the whole field is now moving to your music.

Georgia — I will attach the tracks.

They are playing on repeat for me.

Boys, if possible, I would like to ask you to stay with me today.

I want to buy some indoor flowers.

I think I am leaning toward blooming ones.

Mhm.

And I need to study with Roman:

math,

handwriting,

and reading.

Will you stay with him?

Then we will go to the playground.

I want him to run around, fool around with the boys.

Yes, mhm.

His father bought him a bubble gun.

The boy’s happiness has no limit.

No, no, I am teaching him to be alive.

No devices.

Roman’s childhood

Barefoot.
Shirtless.
In shorts.
With dirty hands and a smeared little face.

Shouting and playing shooting games with the boys.
With scraped knees.

Mamaaaaa, just five more minutes!

I really don’t want to eat!

I want that kind of childhood for him.

Thank you.

I am trying.

But I am still afraid to let him go into the yard alone.

Please keep an eye on him.

I will go do my hair and put on a little makeup.

Of course, yes.

I don’t want to look or be unkempt.

Lunch?

All my hope is on you here.

It is terribly hot, and I have an acute reaction to the sun.

Yes, it is funny, but it is true.

When I stay in the sun for too long, I almost faint.

Mhm.

Yes, I am shocked myself.

You can hardly call me frail,

but the fact remains:

the sun is capable of taking me down.

Fish?

I don’t mind.

Yes, yes, I am against dead animals, but fish sometimes tempts me.

Oh, don’t even ask.

And before I forget, I wanted to say two things.

First: I love you very much.

Second: school.

Mhm.

I wanted to ask you to make something.

Create something.

I don’t know how to describe it better.

School for boys

Some kind of educational programs to help boys.

Actual schoolboys.

They have no idea what life is, what a woman is, and what responsibility is.

They need us.

They are still so little.

They won’t listen to me.

And I am a woman on top of that.

Mhm, you understand.

Youth and immaturity will make them brush me off.

They will decide I am just nagging them.

Yes.

So an Alpha has to do it.

Exactly.

All handsome and luxurious, with a Porsche parked beside the building.

With a watch bigger than a mirror.

Yes, exactly.

So, school, boys.

Please.

The boys need us.

They are terrified.

Life has only just begun, and they already don’t understand anything.

Yes, it is funny, but it is true.

I am relying on you

That’s it.

I am relying on you, boys.

Medics and Hollywood, please prepare something.

The boys and I are literally begging you.

Although the boys have such a list that nobody will leave the stove until night.

Well…

Um…

Maybe we can order part of it?!

Okay, that’s it.

Roman is already furious, I have to run.

I adore my boys.

I am waiting for all of youuuu.

Damn, wait.

The time.

Let’s do 3:00 p.m.?

And cartoons?

Nooooo.

No, not Star Wars.

Damn, no.

Legally Blonde?

No?

Oh, come on!

BBC?

Egypt?

Overboard, 1987?

The film battle

Aaaaa, I am covering my ears.

Noooo, I don’t want to hear it.

That’s it.

I know we have watched it a million times.

Nooooo.

Noooo.

That’s it.

Everyone is watching Overboard, 1987.

Yeeees.

That’s it.

Boooooo.

Eeeeeee.

Nope. I decide.

Aaaaaaaa.

Aaaa, save me.

You shameless creatures!

You cannot just immobilize me!

No, I demand the right to vote.

Nooooooo.

Not the damn Star Wars.

Damn.
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