private correspondence
A private thread where love is not enough, because a mother cannot bring her child into a house until she knows the man inside it is safe.
Private line
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It’s not only about that...
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I can’t relax with you.
How am I supposed to bring Roman if I don’t know whether you’re safe?
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Caleb!
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You are objectively explosive.
And you’re irritated a lot of the time.
How am I supposed to know that I won’t have to keep security on guard even inside the house, Caleb?
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How am I supposed to trust you?
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And what if that’s not true?
What am I supposed to do then — walk out in the middle of the night with my child in my arms?
Where would Roman and I go?
Caleb, this is not normal.
It is not normal that I’m afraid of you.
God knows whether passion could turn into aggression one day.
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How can you be so sure?
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Exactly.
That proves my point.
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I can’t do this, Caleb.
Your word alone is not enough.
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Yes.
Exactly.
Don’t play the victim.
I cannot just take your word for it.
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Yes.
Hoping is one thing.
Knowing is another.
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Stop.
I’m a mother.
I’m responsible not only for myself.
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Don’t be rude.
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Caleb, don’t start.
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Yes.
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Fine.
If I see that you are actually handling yourself...
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I don’t know.
But something has to be done.
It is not normal that you’re such a psycho.
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I’m sorry.
I didn’t mean it like that.
Please forgive me.
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No.
This is not just your temper.
You are nervous.
You are tense.
You are constantly on edge.
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I don’t even want to discuss that, Caleb.
No drugs.
Absolutely not.
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Yes.
Maybe that’s part of it.
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Honestly, I think you need to move, Caleb.
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Caleb, for God’s sake, watch your mouth.
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Yes.
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I’m serious.
This is not funny to me at all.
I don’t see any other solution.
You need to move, Caleb.
Into your own house.
A place where your nervous system can finally breathe.
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😠
Then don’t ask for my advice.
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Caleb, I’m already sick of hearing “I’m sorry.”
Just stop messing up.
That’s all.
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No.
Don’t.
I don’t want to turn this into a game.
This has to be solved.
Deal with it.
You have to move.
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Decide for yourself.
But don’t drag this out.
Deal with it before the end of the month.
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Yes.
June 23.
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Cancer season.
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I don’t know yet.
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Without you, I don’t want to celebrate.
And without the boys, I don’t really want to either.
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Yes.
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Don’t pretend.
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Don’t lie, Caleb.
Damn it.
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😠
I support him, if that’s what you mean.
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😠😠😠
Caleb!
Do not start.
Nate stays anyway.
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😠
Not “we’ll see.”
He stays.
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Caleb!
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I’m tired.
I’m going to sleep.
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Fine.
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Caleb, I’m begging you.
Can we please stop turning everything into war?
How much longer?
God.
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I don’t want to discuss this.
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Your war with him has already exhausted me.
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Yes.
Exactly like that.
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Caleb, darling, please.
I love you.
You know that.
But I cannot relax until I know you’re safe.
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Caleb, don’t start.
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Fine.
I don’t care what it is.
Courses.
Therapy.
Anything.
As long as it helps.
But the main thing is the move.
Fix your living situation, Caleb.
I didn’t wait for your answer.
I’m very tired.
I’m going to sleep.
Good night.
Sweet dreams, my dear.