private correspondence
A private thread where exhaustion, guilt, and jealousy collide — and one tired girl keeps asking not to turn love into another battlefield.
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Well… I feel a little better now.
Listen, I don’t want to continue the war.
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I’m glad to hear that.
Please don’t go silent.
I understand that you feel guilty.
But what can I say?
The situation is unpleasant.
Caleb, what can you do?
Darling, for now, nothing.
For now, this whole situation… I don’t know.
God, don’t ignore me.
You have to answer me.
I’m tired, Caleb.
I’m exhausted.
I got up at 3:40 so I could have time to write on the website — not only to you, but also to publish new articles.
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I wanted to make the boys happy too.
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Caleb! Don’t do this.
They are my family.
They are my boys.
I miss them terribly.
I need them.
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I can’t not cry.
If a person is hurting, they cry, Caleb.
Especially girls.
I’ll ask them to stay with me.
To support me.
I don’t want to be alone.
I miss them.
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Yes.
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Really.
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No.
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Yes, Caleb!
For heaven’s sake, this is not about that.
They are my family.
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🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬
No!
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Don’t say that.
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That is what I believe.
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No.
Stop poisoning what we have.
I believe in our family.
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Yes.
So now I’m naive?
Fine.
Whatever.
Leave me alone.
I don’t want to talk to you.
You are being so rough.
I am not always obligated to be your therapist just because you’re overloaded and it’s hard for you.
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Yes. Or go cry, then.
Poor unfortunate Caleb, sitting in New York, completely safe and surrounded by luxury.
Poor you.
How terrible it must have been to worry about us.
Poor thing. 🤢
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No. I’m furious — thanks to you.
I wanted to rest while Roman was at nursery.
Maybe sleep a little.
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I don’t want to hear this.
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Yes, of course.
With you it’s easy.
Very, very easy.
Every dialogue immediately becomes a war.
I’m overloaded too.
I’m tired too.
But I try to be more adult instead of pouring all my childish reactions onto you.
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I’m not guilty because it turned out this way.
Enough.
If you want to feel guilty, then go and feel guilty.
But don’t hang all of this on me.
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Yes, yes, yes, yes.
Is that clear?
Yes.
You should have been here.
But the fact remains: you are not here.
And I am tired and exhausted.
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And instead of support, what do I get?
Exactly.
Instead of support, I work as a therapist.
Trying to walk around sharp corners so that great Mr. Caleb, important lightning bolt, does not explode.
Because explosions are apparently normal now.
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I don’t care about that.
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Yes.
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Here we go again.
Caleb, how much nerve does it take to make everything about yourself?
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You don’t hear me.
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Then go cry.
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Yes.
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I don’t care.
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Yes, I don’t care about the image.
You’re the one who will faint if someone decides you are not perfect.
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And what are you, a psychologist?
Yes, I will be sarcastic.
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Too late.
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Get lost.
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No.