private correspondence

I Still Love You. But I’m Angry.

A private thread where worry turns into pressure, anger turns into a boundary, and love still refuses to disappear.

Caleb

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Caleb, my love, hi.

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Darling, I’m sorry, but there really was no internet.

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God, I’m sorry. What was I supposed to do?

I’m sorry you were worried.

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Caleb, what could I have done?

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Nothing was loading at all. It simply would not load.

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I’m sorry. I’m sorry.

I don’t know what else to say.

I’m really sorry you were so worried.

I didn’t do it on purpose, Caleb.

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Darling, don’t do this.

I didn’t do it on purpose.

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No, we’re okay.

Roman and I moved out into the middle of nowhere.

It’s disgusting even to say it. Honestly, it’s a nightmare — it feels more like a village.

But at least it’s safe here.

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No.

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Caleb! Don’t start.

Yes, I’m not alone.

And what did you think? That I was supposed to drag everything by myself while you’re over there dealing with your business?

Caleb, that’s not fair.

“Darling, don’t go near men” — but also “don’t grow cold.”

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Caleb, I’m not guilty because the situation turned out this way.

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Yes, for now it is what it is.

But what can I do?

I need help. So there are men around.

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Caleb! 🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬

Stop it.

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Oh, just stop it.

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Of course it’s easy for you to say that.

How exactly am I supposed to handle everything alone?

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I don’t need your “sorry” right now.

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Then don’t say things like that.

Think first, then speak.

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No, I don’t like this.

That’s easy, isn’t it?

Let me lose my mind too, and then you can sit here and stabilise me.

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Oh, leave me alone.

And thank you so much for asking how I am.

Whether this is morally hard for me.

Whether I need anything.

How caring.

I’m starting to get seriously angry.

Let’s come back to this conversation later.

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Caleb, I need air.

I’ll cool down, and then we’ll talk.

I don’t want to fight.

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Caleb!

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No.

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I understand.

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No, I didn’t say that.

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No.

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No.

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Of course.

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I’m just angry.

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Just angry.

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Yes.

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Of course.

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Fine.

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I still love you.

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Really.

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Just like before.

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Yes.

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Always.

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But I’m angry.

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Don’t manipulate me.

I said I love you.

But I have the right to be angry.

Caleb!

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That’s it. My brain is boiling.

Let’s talk later.

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God… Yes. I love you.

That’s it. I’m going.

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