Boys, I need you.
As soon as you are free, everyone come to me.
re:um — Nighthawk (Reprise).
Connection.
The mother wound.
Aggression.
The impulse to hit a woman.
The impulse to slap her.
Violence toward her, even when it is disguised as BDSM or mutual agreements.
Everyone goes into the practice.
Derek will lead it.
He is Nate’s inner trauma.
Nate, my dear, hold on.
Caleb, you cannot come here.
Everyone else — full readiness.
Military men and boys under twenty-seven, you will lead.
I have almost no strength left.
If I can, I will write out the full cycle later.
This cycle has to be closed.
All of Nate’s mother-related traumas have been blown open.
In short:
Nate does not understand this in real life.
He may not even feel it.
But the Nate who exists in Cobra is one of the parallel lives of the Nate who exists in this reality.
We are not talking about a completely separate person.
We are talking about another layer of the same Nate, connected to this Nate through another reality.
Nate, like any person, lives in several realities at once.
His clones are there.
Damn it, boys, do not look at me like that.
I will explain everything properly,
but not now.
The version that exists in the Cobra reality —
that Nate is not entirely stable.
His mind has slipped.
And it is affecting Caleb in this reality,
because that Nate is taking revenge on Caleb here.
That is why I forbade Caleb to be in the practice.
All those flashes, like “I am raising my hand to hit Nazokat,”
are not natural to Caleb.
Even during the period of fire,
Caleb in this reality does not do that.
He does not even grab me by the jaw.
But because I could not recognize for a long time what was happening—
Oh, excellent. So it is her fault.
Hades crossed one leg over the other
and started sipping his cocktail.
Right.
What a menace.
So.
Because I did not understand what was happening with Nate
and kept trying to find the cause,
Nate from Cobra — or more precisely, Derek —
connected energetically to Caleb.
And because of that, Caleb started shaking
from horror and fear
that he might hit me.
Deep breath.
Caleb in this reality treats me as gently as a feather.
Nate is golden and kind, as always.
The Cobra reality infected this reality with Derek
because Nate from Cobra hates me
and hates his mother.
He is angry at her.
He is trying to kill her in that layer.
Dear God, I think that is everything.
Listen up.
Quiet, boys. Quiet.
I understand this is complete hell.
But what can I say?
I will write it all out later.
For now, please read up on these clones,
on how a person can live in several realities at once.
That is it.
I am going to sleep.
I almost died while untangling all of this.
Now everyone come hug me, kiss me, support me,
and sing me a little lullaby
so I can fall asleep in big, strong arms.

The session starts at 14:59 MSK.
Then at 18:00.
And if the ambulance does not take me away,
then at 22:00.
Do not look at me like that, boys.
The energy is insane.
Derek is a full-on psycho.
I have already been taken away by ambulance before.
Yes.
That happened.

Now separately.

Caleb, my dear.
You lie down and do not move.
The body needs to be cleared out.
No strain.
You lie down, my dear.
And try to hold it when the therapy starts
and we begin pulling out what Derek implanted.
The darkness will try to break out,
and your body will start arching.
I do not know whether we will handle it in one round.
But the chip has to be removed,
and you have to be put back together.
There are many chips, programs, hooks, and systems.
It will take time before we clean out a body like that completely.
Please, no strain.
Sleep.
Or just lie still.
I need you, my beloved.